I am a self-editor, a deep thinker who is detail oriented. I enjoy writing because I can organize things and rearrange and choose my words carefully, and…well, you get the idea. The problem is that doing all of that takes time, and energy – two things that are limited in my life for a variety of reasons. That problem is part of what has gotten in my way in the past when it comes to writing anything, including posts for this blog.
God is faithful even when we feel our weakest and messiest. That’s where I’ve been the last few years – feeling awful about myself and what I do, but assured nonetheless that I am deeply loved by God. Part of that assurance is that He has been teaching me many things and stretching me in many ways.
That means – I’d like to write about all of it!!!!! In order to get thoughts to words on page or screen means I have to give up some of that deliberation about what I write and just put it out there. Typos, poor grammar and language choice, muddled thoughts and all.
In the past I have made plans for what I want to do with this blog (Have I mentioned I am a planner too? My follow through and discipline are terrible, though ; ). So I have no plan. But I hope that as I think of things I will pray about them then write and post them. There may be more content, but expect mistakes. We’ll see. Maybe I’ll get more done this year…and maybe not. I will try to be obedient to God in my life and trust Him for the outcome even if it doesn’t match my expectations or desires.
This was something that occurred to me lately to do, encouraged by the example of a friend of mine who is attempting his blog again. However, looking at the first last post of 2017 (the last time I posted because it was an Every Other Year - no longer so embarrassing, now somewhat amusing; and a "plan" I am keeping up with...so far) I see I closed with this statement, "Going with honest and authentic, and having gone past my time limit, I'll be brave and not self edit - this is thoughts as they came out of my brain as I typed. Scary ;) So apparently God may have been using my "failure" (cutting it close to post in 2017) to prepare me for a place I would be a year and a half later. He's got me beat at being a planner - and His follow through is perfect! ; ) Unedited writing is still a scary proposition for me, though
